I have often think about and relish how God speaks to me through music.
I find beauty clearly represented through melodies and sweet sounds that flow from individuals that have been gifted musically. God has a way of communicating lovely and endearing truths to me through such music.
Often, as people take His Word, His love letter to us all, and put those words to music, I cannot help but rejoice and rest in the beauty that is caught up in such giftedness.
As I live life I often see it in a linear manner, a timeline. I tend to be a visual person and I love imagining things as I think ponder them, seeing them occur in my mind as if they are happening before my very eyes.
Many things have happened in my life that has moulded me into who I am today, and that has brought me to the place that I am at right now. Some of these things have been wonderful experiences that have left me feeling blessed and encouraged within, while others have been trials and sufferings that go very deep, both of which have deeply effected and made me who I am today.
I am currently in a place of great joy and excitement! I am awaiting the arrival of my 4th child. I do not have any children currently living, which is a story to be told another time, but today-right now-I am joyfully awaiting the birth of my first living child!
As I await the birth of my baby, I am torn within. I am 31 weeks pregnant today. This pregnancy has been one filled with risk which has stemmed from my history of troubled pregnancies. The fact that I have been blessed to carry this child this far is such a sweet gift! Too sweet for me to be able to express through words.
For the last month I have been at risk for pre-term labor. Weekly doctor appointments and ultrasounds followed by living week to week not knowing if each appointment would bring me to bed rest in the hospital or not. I have walked this past month, along side my husband, living in the unknown. I have experienced such turmoil within at the thought of coming this far only to have our baby be born early, really early. I have had to trust my God in this in a whole new way.
I have been brought to the point of relinquishing control...control that I never actually had to begin with. God has given me this child and I am only a steward of his/her little life.
The music artist, Chris Tomlin, is so gifted in his ability to create deeply meaningful worship music. Through different seasons in my life I have come across his music and just been stopped in awe of the glory of my Lord! This week has brought me to a point like this.
In his song 'Sovereign' he sings:
As I await the birth of my baby, I am torn within. I am 31 weeks pregnant today. This pregnancy has been one filled with risk which has stemmed from my history of troubled pregnancies. The fact that I have been blessed to carry this child this far is such a sweet gift! Too sweet for me to be able to express through words.
For the last month I have been at risk for pre-term labor. Weekly doctor appointments and ultrasounds followed by living week to week not knowing if each appointment would bring me to bed rest in the hospital or not. I have walked this past month, along side my husband, living in the unknown. I have experienced such turmoil within at the thought of coming this far only to have our baby be born early, really early. I have had to trust my God in this in a whole new way.
I have been brought to the point of relinquishing control...control that I never actually had to begin with. God has given me this child and I am only a steward of his/her little life.
The music artist, Chris Tomlin, is so gifted in his ability to create deeply meaningful worship music. Through different seasons in my life I have come across his music and just been stopped in awe of the glory of my Lord! This week has brought me to a point like this.
In his song 'Sovereign' he sings:
Sovereign in my greatest joy, Sovereign in my deepest cry
With me in the dark, With me at the dawn
In your everlasting arms, All the pieces of my life
From beginning to the end, I can trust you
In your never failing love, You work everything for good
God whatever comes my way, I will trust you
All my hopes, All I need, Held in your hands
All my life, All of me, Held in your hands
All my fears, All my dreams, Held in your hands
God whatever comes my way, I will trust you
I will trust you
